As part of this blogging process, I can see how many people look at my blog each day, what part of the world they live in, how many first time viewers versus returning viewers I have. I know I have mentioned before that the response to this little thing I have created has been amazing and from the part of the world that you see (on the blog) I only have 13 followers but I have about 100 people per day read it from all over the world. So, I will again say that the response has been AMAZING. However, when compared to someone who gets thousands of hits a day, it is peanuts but for me. . .I am pretty impressed.
The reaction that I have received in person has definitely surprised me. I have heard people tell me that I am freakin’ hilarious. I have received texts from people I don’t know (friends of friends) telling me that they are true blue followers and begging me to not stop writing. Of course this feels so good to my bruised ego and probably fuels me on to each new blog.
My friend Anthony texted me one night asking what he can do to make it into the blog . . .then he brainstormed different idea’s all night and what we came up with was: we would go out, get him drunk, have him puke on me then pass out naked on my front lawn. I know it sounds extreme, but he felt that he had to up his game in order to make the cut! I guess that speaks so very loudly at the crazy that has been my life lately!
Additionally, I have friends who don’t mind me writing about our conversations, but would prefer to have names changed and of course I will honor this. Or friends who feel for my safety I should change the names of my dates. . .noted and I am now changing all names!
Really where I am going with this blog about blogs is the haters. . .yes the haters! I have been writing this blog for the last couple weeks, it began because I love to write and I think that I may have a slight talent for it. However I am not a good fiction writer, I have only ever written about my life because as you see my real life is so much more crazy than I could ever come up with as fiction! But I am so tired of hearing people tell me:
I must have had some mental break to be doing this.
I must have gone a little off the deep end to publish my life.
I must be out to get someone (read between the lines as to who I would be out to get. . namely Travis) because that is the only reason I would do this.
I must have . . .
You can insert any criticism you like, I think you get the picture. It is so frustrating to me to hear this and not for the obvious reasons of “why doesn’t everyone love it?” But more for the fact that all the haters are from one segment in my life. All the haters congregate together and spend their “work” time hating someone who is actually doing something they love. What a miserable existence to spend your time being so critical of something that is becoming a success. You know what that is called, right? Yes. . .it is the green eyed monster called jealousy! They are all faithful readers, but instead of supporting me and encouraging what I am doing they choose call me crazy for it instead. I stand back and see objectively that they are not putting themselves out there, they are not trying something new that may fail or may bring them joy and success. It is so much easier to sit back in their dull lives and judge instead of take a risk at something great.
I understand that I will not please everyone with what I write. Some blogs will speak to you more than others. Some blogs I may try to be funny, some I may try to be deep. . .I may fail at both or I may just surprise everyone (myself included) and accomplish both. But through it all, I would hope that my “friends” and family would just want to support it no matter what because it has brought me through a very difficult time in my life and I am now on the other side of the darkness seeing happiness again. I guess I have learned who are truly friends and who are people that I really don’t want to associate with any longer because it is way to exhausting to have to watch my back from their gossip and pettiness. Just maybe someday they will make the decision to stop judging and start supporting! When that day happens, I would love to bring them back into the folds of my life.
To sum this up, my advice to all the haters is. . .if your only purpose for reading my blog is to pass judgment on me or to assume that you know why I am writing and what my experiences have been then just stop reading! If your purpose is to enjoy some light reading, laugh with me and share it with friends and family, then I welcome you with wide open arms.
Thank you for listening to me while I vent about those haters!
I hate you in all the right ways! You are beautiful, funny, talented, smart and best of all you are my friend! To heck with the haters!
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